I'm finding it hard to write at the moment.
My heart is sore, and all I want to say is Life is fucked and continue on in my little pity party that I'm having.
My head said to me this morning "suck it up princess - you have more to be grateful for then a lot of people"... which made me think about gratitude, perspective and not giving in to the black dog.
so out of the heart ache that I have been feeling for the last couple of weeks what do I have to be grateful for....
- my mum. the irony of this is not lost on me...The universe works in such bizarre ways at times. my own relationship with my mother has been rocky to say the least - but I'm incredibly grateful that she has been here the last two weeks, to anchor me, and stop me from hurtling out into space... she kept the house going while I cried... tears for my own 15yo girl inside, and for my 15 yo daughter. I feel more connected to my mother now then I have in a very long time.
Me, Mum and Laura- M... as is the case most of the time, men want to fix things. He knew he couldn't fix this, instead he gave me what I needed - comfort, a safe place to cry, love. For the first time in any relationship that I have had with a man I feel like someone has MY back.
Looking at the stars on the trampoline.
- Aston, whose excitement at going away on holidays to Daydream Island is infectious. If I can view the world through his four year old eyes life looks pretty wonderful.
Daydream Island in Playdoh :)
Mira Narnie (I wanted to write Narnia!!) is hosting this weeks Grateful link up...
What are you grateful for?