Hurting heart...

At Aston's request we have just sat and looked through photos from when he was in my belly to now. the first two years of photos were so painful.

This morning aston cried and asked to see daddy. I have mastered the art of looking ok on the outside, and dying a slow death inside. my heart hurt so much for him.

I know in the big scheme of things everything happens for a reason, a lesson to learn, a fear to overcome, a victory to be experienced....but right now all it feels like is pain.