tick tock... someone please slow the clock

Half way through January already. two weeks until I turn 40. just under two weeks until my mother arrives.... which means just under two weeks until the possiblity of some crisis or another occuring...I'm fairly certain that my sister is off her medication. I have thought so from since before christmas. She is manic.and its building...why does it always seem to happen around the times when its supposed to be something special for me...every friggin timeI'm glad that i decided to have my celebration...

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Lauralei

This time 14 years ago I lay restlessly waiting for tomorrow. Trying to sleep, but so excited with the anticipation of finally meeting this small child that lay within my womb. Who would they be? What would they look like? Was it a boy.. or a girl? All through my pregnancy - up until 3 weeks before your birth - I was convinced you were a boy. I wanted you to be a boy. If you were a boy, then all the fears that I held deep inside me would never come to fruition... I could relax. Then just before...

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2010...

Thank god I have finally seen the back of 2009. New year, new opportunities, new possiblities...new perspective.So what would I like to achieve this year....First and foremost - some type of inner peace. To spend less time in a state of trauma, and more time feeling calm.Reconnect with my children.Move house.Paint.Write.Clean out the crap in my life - people, stuff, things... whatever... to allow new and exciting things to enter.Get a tattoo....

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