swings and roundabouts...

been a bit like that since I last posted. up down and all around. Things between L and I have settled down. The rules, and consequences have made a big improvement to the house overall, and I feel far more in control. I went away for the weekend to Melbourne with Mr Darcy. Was so wonderful, and just what I needed to do. The change of scenery, and doing something that was just about me (and him) was brilliant. I know that I need to do it more regularly, and not leave it until I feel like I'm going...

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endings and beginnings.

oh what an interesting week it has been.... Sunday I took L to see her Best Friend because it was her 13th birthday, and I had brought her a present from L and I and I wanted to see her as well. 13 is special. She lives about 20k drive away. Which when you are on as tight a budget as I am is a lot. Nathan was at friends so L, A and I went out to the friends place. I decided to stay and have coffee and cake with mum, and thought that it was better then driving all the way home, to turn around and...

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Pity Party

one week down of the school holidays. one to go... hate it when the days all fold into each other, one after another, with nothing much to differentiate one from the next... sign of boredom. Went to my appointment with the Parenting Orders Program on Tuesday. Didn't that rip off a bandaid that I wasn't even aware that I had on. Rang KL in the evening howling down the phone... feeling extremely sorry for myself, and the choices that I have made in regards to the two noticeably absent fathers that...

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