Pain

Pain is my nemesis. My cross to bear. Burning spreads across my chest. Tentacles snake up my neck ... across my shoulders... down my arms... If I drew it, it would look like a molten heaving mass - black, and red, and yellow... Fatigue melts my flesh ‘til it feels liquid and heavy...  the only respite -  Be a horizon on a bed of relief.  Breathe in. Breathe out. My soul whispers... “Let go of the sea of shame. The dishes will wait. The floors will stay unswept. No...

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What’s in a name?

A thousand years ago, or so it seems, when I started this blog I had no idea what to call it. At the time, I was living on a farm in the picturesque Noosa Hinterland, at the end of a very long drive way, on top of a hill. God I miss that place. It’s the longest I have ever lived anywhere. I started blogging originally as a way to record what was going on in my life. The interesting conundrum of having a foot in two different parenting camps - a baby, and tweens, that became a toddler and teens....

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Fractured (June 2014)

I wrote this in mid 2014, but never pressed publish. I have several posts that have sat in the draft folder waiting. I have all these words inside me, constantly pushing against my psyche, demanding to be told. So tell them I shall.  "It could be worse." I've lost count of the number of times I have had that said to me. No shit sherlock. Tell me something I don't know. I could have had invasive DCIS, had to have chemotherapy, and all the horrible things you have to...

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